What am I?

There are many words than can be used to describe me: Sweet, seductive, tragic, spiritual, beautiful, geeky, adventurous, fantastical, dreamer, etc. I don't believe one label or word can truly identify any individual. We are all simple and complex in our own, beautiful ways. I believe in seeing the beauty in every individual.

I am opinionated, which is putting it lightly. I have a vast array of beliefs and feelings and morals and I have a very clear understanding of my own individuality. I know what I want out of life, and I live my life with those goals in mind.

I don't tend to go with the norms and I don't give a shit about what anybody thinks of me, because at the end of the day, the only person who really needs to love you, is you. But, in general, I tend to find that people love me, because I'm awesome.

I come from a small town in central California that is your stereotypical small town. How I became the individual that I am coming from that cesspool, I will never know, I think I just always wanted to go the complete opposite of what was the norm.

I have a weakness for country music and junk food. I love musicals, the theatre, wit, intelligence, and for all my cynicism, I am a hopeless romantic.

Every day is a journey in discovering more about myself and growing. The journey is a hard one, but it's been a hell of a ride.

That being said, I cannot list every part of who I am. I will give small insights into myself from time to time. So come, enjoy the ride as I drive it. Every life is a journey with a story to tell. One day, I will find mine. One day I will find my purpose in this live, but until then, I'm going to have fun looking for it.

All fic, art, and video recs will go here. They are each divided into medium and then by fandom and then ship. For the Art, I am including small thumbnails with links to full art. I've just began with the art, so there isn't much here yet. And for Videos, I am only putting the really good ones. (For all my past recommendations, see the tags, I will update this post from time to time, but I will still make recommendation posts).

Fan Fiction:

( Firefly Fics )


( Harry Potter Fics )


( Twilight Fics )


Fan Art: (please note, some images are NWS)

( Georgina Kincaid )


( Harry Potter )


Videos:

( Video Picks )
( Lulz )

-And finally... wait for it....

Naked Hobbits!

( NWS )

I am going to log all the books I read on here because I'm curious to see how many I actually read each year. *is not bothering with the 100 books challenge because I know I far surpass it already* I will be marking multiple reads as well. ***also, if you count in the amount of magazines, newspapers, online articles, and fanficiton I read.... I never stop.***


( Books 2009 )

I'm Jennifer and I mod and play in a few games that need some fresh blood, along with storylines filled.

darkrisingrpg is an extremely active Marauders Era game which takes place during the height of the war in 1978. We have extremely active and wonderfully written characters, have been open for close to a year, and we have solid plots planned for many more months to come. We would love to have the following characters:

( Wanted Characters including James, Peter, Frank, Xeno, Rodolphus, etc. )

the_exodus_rpg is a brand new Marauders Era game that opened on Halloween and closing next November. That's right, we'll only be open for one year. Why you ask? Because we want to solely explore the final year of the war against Voldemort. The game will be dark, bloody, and yes, characters will die in game. We opened with a huge battle and the Potters thrice defying the Dark Lord and they are now on the run. We will be spend the year of the game unraveling how everyone got from prophecy to 'omg everyone is dead'. We've got kick ass players and we would love to see more. The characters we are seeking include:

( Wanted Characters including James, Peter, Frank, Xeno, Rodolphus, etc. )

quadriviumrpg, is an interim game taking place during 1990 at Hogwarts dealing in character development and setting the foundation for the plot of the books. We're a small cast, looking for more students to increase the level of drama in the school, break up relationships, start new ones, and anything else to your heart's content. We're an escape from everyday RP and we welcome shipping, IC drama, and having a good time when all we want to do is have a bit of a cracked-out time. What we really need are more students, including a few love interests for some of our characters. Most of all, we need some younger students, as in June the majority of our cast will be leaving Hogwarts, and who then will keep Gossip Witch in business? At this time we'd specifically love to see a Charlie Weasley, who is a recast, and any questions can be directed to me.

recuperatiorpg, is a Post-DH game taking place in 2005, revolving around a third war in the Wizarding World, werewolves, serial killers, etc. We're active and have a strong cast with strong plots and we're looking to grow so that we can introduce even bigger plots.

( Wanted Characters including Harry, Charlie, Ginny, etc. )

If anyone is interested in filling any of these roles or has any questions, feel free to send me an e-mail at elphabathropp21@yahoo.com or IM me at elphabathropp21 (Y!M) or athenaweasley (AIM).

Another round. Sorry if you were cut, but I probably didn't read your entries anyway.

Title: Without You
Author: snarkysweetness
Characters/Pairings: Marlene McKinnon; Marlene/Severus Snape
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Angst and language
When: MWPP Era
Summary: After a raid by Death Eaters at the Lovegood house on Halloween, Marlene McKinnon loses the child that she was carrying and she experiences the stages of grief.
Disclaimer: Jo owns. If I owned, things would have turned out differently for these two. Song by the Dixie Chicks. Don't usually do these, but I blame my playlist.
Author's Note: This is mostly a character piece. Ignore my oddness and love of angst. I’m a sucker for it.

 

( I'm not okay )

 

Title: Exodus
Author: snarkysweetness
Characters/Pairings: Emmeline Vance/Benjy Fenwick with appearances by Alastor Moody, Alice Longbottom, and a secret someone.
Rating: R
Warnings: Angst, character death.
When: June 1980
Summary: The days before and after Benjy Fenwick’s death. Everyone lost someone, but Emmeline’s loss was almost too much for one person to bear.
Disclaimer: Jo owns. If I owned, things would have turned out differently for these two.
Author's Note: Reviews are love.

leahtragic , love, this is for you.

( The departure of life )

 

Title: Season’s Greetings or How Benjy Fenwick Finally Got His Act Together and Made Things Right
Author: snarkysweetness
Characters/Pairings: Emmeline Vance/Benjy Fenwick
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Snoggage, some sexuality, some language.
When: Around Christmas, 1979
Summary: A year and a half of pining, six months of grief, and finally Benjy sees where his heart truly lies. Now, how to make it known?
Disclaimer: Jo owns. If I owned, things would have turned out differently for these two.
Author's Note: Reviews are love. This is for everyone in

darkrisingrpg and the_exodus_rpg , especially leahtragic , you can all say ‘about damn time’ now.

( Idiot in a box )

 

Title: Dreams Lie
Author: snarkysweetness
Characters/Pairings: Emmeline Vance centered; mentions to Emmeline Vance/Benjy Fenwick
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Adult themes, some swearing, angst.
When: October 1978
Summary: A heartbroken Emmeline dreams of the man she loves. But are dreams worse than reality? After all, you have to wake up eventually, right?
Disclaimer: Jo owns. If I owned, things would have turned out differently for these two.
Author's Note: Reviews are love.

( Sweet Dreams Are Made of These )

Rawr made graphics, they be sexehs.




( Banners )

I've decided to close do_bad_things. While people showed a lot of interest, no one's done anything to follow through and instead of trying to put effort into it, I think it's best that I put it elsewhere.

Erica is probably the only one still interested, so for that dear, I'm sorry.

leahtragic posted this and I think anyone who writes fiction or rp's and is good at it will laugh their ass off and for some people, they need to realize that they do indeed, write Sue's. Embrace the Sue people! Stop living in denial!

If you were cut, sorry, but I most likely couldn't remember why you added me, who you were, or you don't ever update anything, etc.

My poor Emmie has had her ickle heart broken and can't stop crying.

Severus Snape is a bastard (and Peeves is apparently in love with Mar). He slept with Narcissa, 'caused Marlene to lose all love for him, and cross-over. It's okay though, because Peeves is setting Sev up for a world of hurt.

Seriously, I love angst, but being on my period is making me be a big pool of cry.

I do wish I'd had more time to be prepared and informed earlier, mainly because it reminds me of fuckwitty things that happened a long time ago, but I am going to have some serious fun with all of this. Poor Mar is gone, but Tonks can shape-shift and I have things planned. And Emmie's angst is only beginning. Poor kids, her and Benjy should have worked it out earlier. They don't even get two yeas together before he's blown up.

the_exodus_rpg is going to be epic. I'm already in angst-city with other games, I can't wait until I have to kill people.

I am evil, I know.

Also, we need people in all my games. *enables* Especially Death Eaters, love interests, and friends. You know you wanna....

And I've been caught up and I like having muses back, but ack, I remember what it's like to wait on tags forever, not that I haven't been dealing with it, but still....

Need more rp partners to keep me entertained.

Gonna shower, clean, pick up sister, then do plots. Once those are done, then I'll do more tags and threads and CS's for Exodus. Cori, no let me rp until plots are up for Halloween. Make my ass make them understandable to people who don't know how to read 'Jenn'.

I wrote a review of Twilight here and it's fucking hilarious. Don't ask why, I blame Cori.

Title: Alone
Author: snarkysweetness
Characters/Pairings: Emmeline Vance, mentions to Emmeline/Benjy Fenwick
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Angst, drinking, and language
When: MWPP Era
Summary: Emmeline has a broken heart and realizes that she may die alone.
Disclaimer: Jo owns. If I owned, things would have turned out differently for these two.
Author's Note: This is a character piece. Ignore my oddness and love of angst. I’m a sucker for it.

 

( How do I get you alone? )

 

Hello everyone, I'm one of the mods of the_exodus_rpg a brand new Marauders Era game that will be opening on Halloween (in just two weeks) and closing next November. That's right, we'll only be open for one year. Why you ask? Because we want to solely explore the final year of the war against Voldemort. The game will be dark, bloody, and yes, characters will die in game. Still interested?

The game will open on Halloween, 1980, with the Potters going into hiding and will end the day after their deaths. The time in between will be spend unraveling how they got from point A to point B. We've got an amazing mod team of three lovely ladies, along with a cast of nine players and nineteen characters (discluding NPC's) and we're looking for a few more to ensure that all of the amazing things we have planned for the game opening can go off with a huge bang (quite literally, we'll be opening with a battle).

-Frank Longbottom is needed for many reasons. A. His son is a potential Prophecy child, so he needs to be around to keep ickle Neville safe. Alice is already in-game and needs him around to defy the Dark Lord with.
-Peter Pettigrew and Sirius Black to round out the Marauders. We have both Remus and James cast and Peter will turn sides in game, not to mention, these two will have a showdown during the final night of the game.
-Xenophilius Lovegood, your wife is in game and about to find out that she is pregnant with Luna.
-Rodolphus and Rabastan Lestrange, Bella needs you two to get into trouble with.
-And in general we need Order members and Death Eaters, along with many others.

Mostly, we need DEATH EATERS, we cannot emphasize this any more. Like we said, we plan to opens things off with a battle, which means both sides of the war need to be evened up. So if you have an evil muse in there, send the over, we guarantee good times for them.

A list of all characters can be found here and a list of available characters can be found here along with the Premise. We hope to see some of you come on by and if you have any questions, feel free to contact the mods here or at exodusmods@live.com.


( Game Ad Below Cut )

So, new Rayne awards for 2007 are up, but on the site I'm under schwartzylogainne, since they use my FF.net name. I am nominated in the Fluff - Cuddly, Like Me category for Letters from Home.

*bats eyes*

Like Drama, Romance, and Quidditch?

( Quad )


Ginny Search:

( Ginny ).


Single White Witch Seeking Nervous, Virginal Male

( Neville )


Frank Longbottom Needed for His Adorable Wife and Son

( Frank )

*making this one public for once, b/c I want my Lissa to read it*

I think my life sucks because I'm pretty. I mean, why else? No idea. But I am pretty, so that makes me happy. If I were ugly, fuck sticking it through will all of this B.S.

I'm keeping this all specific, b/c I am not trying to relive any of this, I've just gotten to the point where I'm not weeping and packing, so...yeah, not trying to get there again. Country music and specifics for me today.

Friday, no food in the house *but oh, toast?*, so I call mom to bring something b/c I want to be fed and rested, etc. for the CBEST. Hours later, them ignoring my calls, they come home, with a like quarter of a club sandwich, so I know they went to eat, and for me? Nothing. *this is at like close to midnight and I'm so pissed off and starving, I can't sleep* Little brother gets me BK b/c he was pissed off at them for that too. Good to know someone appreciates that fact that I RAISED him, or so I think, this explanation to come later.

Then I get maybe three hours of sleep? Before I need to get up, shower, and go to Manteca. Once we're there, my dad sees a diner he loves and omg, I get a real breakfast. I wolfed that shit down. 4 pieces of French toast, two eggs, two pieces of bacon, a huge glass of orange juice, and a bowl of beans. *I was tots still hungry which should show how much I have not been eating, usually I can't even make it through the eggs*

Take the CBEST.

Let me say this once;

A retarded monkey sleeping and poo'ing on itself could pass this shit. I finished it in less than two hours and was rolling my eyes at it the whole time. Honestly! I have a college degree, it's an insult to my intelligence to give me that test, basic skills or not, shouldn't there still be a challenge?

Then I call mom to say 'hey, done, can someone get me', b/c I had told them earlier, 'I think I will be done no later than 11 (and I wasn't), so at like 10, just come get me, then we can go to the car auction (where they were at)'. She YELLED at me about how she wasn't leaving to get me and for me to go read a book and wait, like a dog.

Luckily, I brought two book, so I go to read on the grass until my allergies were about to KILL me and found an empty table.

I'm there, maybe five minutes? And this cutesy, artsy type girl comes up and was like 'I don't want to come off as one of those crazy religious people, but is there anything I can pray with you about? It sounds crazy, but I believe that God sent me to you, because I saw this light surrounding you, and I'd really like to pray with you if I can.'

And usually, I'd be like 'wtf' b/c some of those people are creepy, but something about her seemed sincere and didn't turn me off, so we prayed and we had a conversation about what we wanted to do with our lives, why we'd taken the CBEST, etc. And she asked me if I had a job, I told her no and how hard it was to find one and she looks at me, very seriously, and says "I guarantee, this week, you'll have one. And God is smiling on you and he's going to begin blessing you", something like that, and I'm thinking 'I wish', so we part, I look down b/c at that moment, phone rings, look back up and she is GONE! I mean, gone, I even went in the direction she went and nothing, so I was tripping out for like...ten minutes, until parents got on my case and I though 'oh yes, this is my reality'.

So, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay long story short, I had it OUT with my parents, in front of grandma and brother.

I got maybe 60% of my issues out there and what happens? Someone they find a way to not only ignore my points, but begin making up things I said that I didn't, and OMG I SHOULD BE A GROWN-UP AND BE GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE A HOME AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS AND GOD KNOWS THE TRUTH!

*headdesk*

And apparently, I'm loved b/c I'm not on the streets and I am a failure and they're sick of me.

The only one on my side is Aunt Virgie, the fuck up.

She was PISSED when I told her how everyone ganged up on me in the middle of a crowded restaurant. I haven't' had to sneak off to cry in the bathroom since City of Angels. And Aimee knows the hell I went through working that show.

I was so ready to give Severus, Snuggles, and Neville away to good homes, pack a bag, and be homeless. Aunt Virgie told me she's trying to get a place and if she does, I can live with her for as long as I need to. That's the only reason I didn't go be homeless. I cannot believe after pouring my heart out, they threw it in my face and threw GOD on me!

GOD!

Well, guess what, God does know all, parents, and he knows the true heart and soul of everyone, and when judgment day comes, I am not worried for myself.

Some people....

I have an appointment with the Chiropractor in a week, which *should* be my last, unless she decides to be greedy again and keep me an extra month for no reason, b/c the fact is, I'm not getting better, her crack-pot cracking of my neck does nothing for my muscle and nerve damage, thanks. Realistically, once everything is paid, I would feel so blessed to have enough to get my own place and pay off my two credit cards (I don't consider the one my parents maxed out mine, b/c they are paying that shit off by December or it's war). Hopefully I have a job by then so I can get a car and then work a shit job, substitute, have enough to live, eat, pay off my massive loans (got my first bill Saturday), and finish...

Some sort of novel or screenplay. They'll publish anything, I mean, Stephenie Meyer with her third-grade writing and horrible grammar got published. Where there are stupid teenagers, there is money, after all.

And maybe, someday, I will find someone to share life with that isn't' a cat or two puppies, but hey, if not, I have them.

If life wants to keep fucking with me, fine, I'm stubborn, but if it wants to finally cooperate with me, that would be amazing too.

God is my savior and I believe that one day, he will save me. If I have to keep suffering in life so that I can be rewarded in death, then I accept that.

And for non believers who want to mock that, I can't live life believing there's nothing to look forward to in the end, that this life and it's troubles are for nothing, because if that's true, then this life is not worth living. I need to believe in something more, so I do.

So, I'm coming up with a little prayer to tell myself when times are bad;

Lord, fill me with your light and joy and be my savior. Grant me forgiveness, patience, and compassion. Light my way when I am lost and may I always find my way back to you.

And time to break out the list of reasons why I should love myself, which I think every person needs (and yes, I actually keep this list with me and I've had it for years):

1. You deserve all the happiness in the world, the earth, the moon, the stars, the sky, the heavens, everything. NEVER let anyone convince you otherwise. You're a gift from God to this Earth and you shall be treated as such.

2. You don't need anyone else to make you happy except yourself.

3. If someone can't appreciate and love you for who you are, they don't deserve you. The reason you haven't found love in someone else is because God has not yet made someone who is worthy of you.

4. Always love yourself, no matter what, because if you don't love you, no one else will.

5. Keep it positive. Don't let yourself be weighed down by meaningless things. Life is about love, laughter, and happiness-anything else is insignificant.

6. Smile-at least six times a day.

7. Always remember that you love more deeply than others because you are a good person. Not everyone can be as amazing as you are.

I should write a self-help book. Jenn's Steps to Happiness. But there you go.

I'm going to ignore the existence of these people and attempt to re-find and keep my true self, because she dies completely.

God bless you all and I hope everyone else is having a better time of things than I am.

And if all else fails, there's Paramore and Country Music.

Grace and Cori convinced me not to quit RP...

Instead, they convinced me to bitch out the players in the game I'm having the most problems with. B/C quite frankly, DR is fine now that the problem is gone, but Recup still has issues.

I think I went too far with this, but quite frankly? It is this bad and they needed this. I'm sharing b/c I need the players in DR to understand how much I love and respect them, because I didn't have to tell them off and srsly, they need to know they're loved.

( The Bitch Note )

Again, you guys rock.

I actually had to post in rpvents.

( How the Mighty Have Fallen )

Between all of the fuckery with Erica, and Ginny player, and Harry player, and now Ernie player along with all the little things that keep me from actually playing and do nothing but add to my incredibly high stress levels, I'm quitting RP.

Just thought some people would want a warning before I did it. Nothing's changing my mind. I've been done for awhile and tonight was just the icing on the cake.

It'd be different if I actually could go offline for three days and come back to more than three tags, but I don't. I go weeks waiting for tags and when I want to come on and play, I just deal with bullshit from fucking idiots and I'm done.

So thank you to all of those people who killed the only thing I have to look forward to these days.

Now my life really is total shit, so thanks.